As I was getting out of the shower this morning and wishing I could instantly have clothes appear on myself, I got to thinking.
Yes, I do love the winter time. I mean, I did. When I went through that stupid emo phase I liked the cloudy, depressing skies during the winter. I never really liked the cold itself, I just liked wearing all my really cute winter clothes. About 3/4 of my wardrobe is long-sleeved, and I'm more comfortable in long-sleeved tops, so that's why I always loved winter.
But this morning I realized, I'm very much in love with the sun. At least, this new Katie is. Sunny days seem to lift everyone's spirits, so to say. I like being warm. I would NEVER want to live up north where I would freeze every day. I was born and raised a Southern girl and I don't think that will change.
On other notes, I was really saddened today. My own family thinks I'm a hypocrite, because as I learn new things and try to change, I try to help them, as well. I wish I could say the whole story so it's more understandable, but I'm trying to let it breeze by. I know where my heart is, and more importantly, so does God the Father. At least I know once I'm baptized, HE will forgive me, and all my past deeds, and I will start a new life in Him. If no one else wants to accept that, then that's their problem. I need to focus on myself and not on what other people think or say about me, when I'm not even in the wrong. It's really gonna take me some time to realize that when people try to use my past against me, I shouldn't feel guilty. But I'll get there. God says He will forgive me, but He never says anything about anyone else, and that's fine. My focus is on the Kingdom and if I have to lose friends, or, as unpleasant as it may be, family, because I chose a higher calling, then so be it. And if certain family members want to go around talking about me, I won't care anymore. I can't let myself care. And if certain best friends want to follow after certain family members... so be it. That stings, but I'm not scared to be alone anymore. Why? Because I know now more than ever that I'm NEVER alone.
So there we go. I hope you had a Happy Sabbath; mine was trying but it was definitely blessed.
Stay warm!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
Volunteering
Well, today, even though I had (as usual) huge reservations about committing, I went and volunteered at this place called Petzone. It's a great place, the people are nice, and the dogs are so sweet. I loved helping out, it was just SO much work. But it's a good way to show animal-lovers that it IS possible to have too many. At least dogs, that is. Especially untrained ones. Yikes! But the owner, Kate, is going a great job there, and making a difference in her little corner. I want to be a part of that difference. So Bryan and I are going in Sunday morning to open. I don't know how much I can keep up during the week, considering it's somewhat of a drive (especially when gas goes back up!) but I am thinking maybe Fridays, if they need me, and Sunday mornings. I already want to adopt two of the dogs, and I fell in love with the two "house" cats, Mr. Fluffy and Mr. Whiskers - they're Sphinxes so they have absolutely no fluff or whiskers! - so this could be dangerous! Haha! My animals were alllll over me when I walked in. I think Bella is mad at me :(
Needless to say, after this week, I'm definitely ready for the Sabbath. I'm ALWAYS ready for the Sabbath! And soon I'll actually be a true part of the church. So exciting.
I guess that's it for now. I'm wiped. But Praise God!
Have a great Sabbath!
Needless to say, after this week, I'm definitely ready for the Sabbath. I'm ALWAYS ready for the Sabbath! And soon I'll actually be a true part of the church. So exciting.
I guess that's it for now. I'm wiped. But Praise God!
Have a great Sabbath!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Eating Habits, New Habits
I’ve come to find that there is one type of eating that gives you energy, and one type that makes you want to curl up and sleep. I had to learn this the hard way. And I'm surprised I never realized it before. But, this is about change, right? So, I'm glad I came upon the realization today.
Now, my dad gave me a bag of whole-wheat pretzels, about a 1/4 full, as I was rushing out the door to classes today. I had planned on having two or three in the fifteen minute break between my classes, and a little water.
What happened instead was, I had a whole class off, and after talking to the hot Brad for a little while, I went out with Julie to Taco Bell. I didn't have the money and I had pretzels and water! But, in true Katie fashion, I went ahead and got a cheesy gordita crunch, as well as grilled chicken taquitos. Wow, was it good. But when I went back to my last three classes, all I wanted to do was fall asleep. I felt like a cat who ate too much and just wants to go pass out.
And that's when I realized I've got to stop this. I need energy, not contentment. I need to be alert at school. I had been starving myself all day, because I hate eating in front of people, but from now I'm just going to eat the pretzels Dad gave me and drink my water in between all my classes to keep me alert. That's certainly a happy medium!
I did great on my Russian test and the day went very well. God has a lot to do with this, I think. I feel vibrant, and I don't even have the Holy Spirit yet, so I can't imagine what it's going to be like when I actually have God's presence within me!!! I'm so excited. Can't stop smiling when I think about our Father's great mercy.
I have a lot more to talk about, but I'll save it for tomorrow since it's coming about then.
Thanks for reading!
Now, my dad gave me a bag of whole-wheat pretzels, about a 1/4 full, as I was rushing out the door to classes today. I had planned on having two or three in the fifteen minute break between my classes, and a little water.
What happened instead was, I had a whole class off, and after talking to the hot Brad for a little while, I went out with Julie to Taco Bell. I didn't have the money and I had pretzels and water! But, in true Katie fashion, I went ahead and got a cheesy gordita crunch, as well as grilled chicken taquitos. Wow, was it good. But when I went back to my last three classes, all I wanted to do was fall asleep. I felt like a cat who ate too much and just wants to go pass out.
And that's when I realized I've got to stop this. I need energy, not contentment. I need to be alert at school. I had been starving myself all day, because I hate eating in front of people, but from now I'm just going to eat the pretzels Dad gave me and drink my water in between all my classes to keep me alert. That's certainly a happy medium!
I did great on my Russian test and the day went very well. God has a lot to do with this, I think. I feel vibrant, and I don't even have the Holy Spirit yet, so I can't imagine what it's going to be like when I actually have God's presence within me!!! I'm so excited. Can't stop smiling when I think about our Father's great mercy.
I have a lot more to talk about, but I'll save it for tomorrow since it's coming about then.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Nervous Much?
It seems as if I have a lot to be nervous about lately.
Six classes in one day (we're talking 1 hour and 15 minute classes that actually challenge me) is really a lot to take on. I don't know what I was thinking. Well, no, I do. I want to succeed and that means being able to finish my Associates at Gainesville, get the HOPE Scholarship and transfer into UGA as soon as possible. Plus, like I said, they're all classes that challenge me and make me think. Unfortunately, I think that I'm bruising my brain.
So anyway, these classes end up placing tests or essays due on the same day, which is nerve-wracking. One test is nerve-wracking, much less two in one day!
Tomorrow I have my first Russian History test. I know the basics, but the test is in the format of two essays - two essays! - and that's what makes me nervous. If it was multiple choice, I'd have it with no problem. But with essays you have to go into so much detail. I don't think I'm ready. Of course, I'm going to study hard tonight and hope that gets me through.
Then in my last class of the day, I have to lead discussion about Ch. 18, Eastern Europe, in our textbook. As proven in speech class the other day, I'm not the best public speaker. And it doesn't help that half of the people in this class, World Civ 2, can't stand me for some reason. I can't help it that I know most of the material already since I took Western Civ my freshman year! So I'm nervous to do that. What if no one answers the questions? The professor said we can randomly pick people... but then they'll hate me more! And I have a feeling I'd be put on the spot for the rest of the semester, urgh.
Which brings me to talk about speech class yesterday. I had my self-introductary speech. As much as it pains me to admit this, I made a B. You've got to be joking me. So what if I said "um." Everyone says "um." And the student critique sheets were painful to read. Most of them said my topics were uninteresting, my introduction didn't catch their attention, I didn't follow the outline (which I did, I have my cards to prove it, come on!); so from this I gather that I'm just not a very interesting person, which is probably why I don't have any followers of this blog, LOL. Wow, now I'm laughing to myself. Could get creepy. Anyway... apparently I can sing in front of thousands but I can't do a job well-done on a speech about myself in front of 30 people. Very comic, isn't it? Maybe from now on I'll just sing about everything, maybe that's the only way I'll be heard in life.
Finally, we come to my nervousness about today. I'm trying to get closer to God and there's steps to be taken to do that. So I'm having the local minister over, and I'm just shaking in my socks! I couldn't even eat breakfast :(
But you know... I've been nervous before, and everything worked out. Why? Because I prayed about it. Yesterday, before my speech, I said a quick prayer. And although I got a B, and although my hands still shook, I didn't feel nervous. When you have God on your side, there's just no possible way to feel nervous. I think our human minds keep telling us to worry about things, but the truth is, when I really think about it, I can't get nervous knowing that God is with me.
Who cares what my fellow students graded me, or if they think I'm uninteresting? God thinks I'm interesting.
If I study and do my best on my Russian test, God will bless me. I have no doubt He'll let me get my just grade if I don't even try.
And obviously I wouldn't even be inviting my minister to my house if He hadn't been with me.
And reminding myself of all of this just now has calmed me.
Phil. 4:13
I'm going to live by that from now on.
Six classes in one day (we're talking 1 hour and 15 minute classes that actually challenge me) is really a lot to take on. I don't know what I was thinking. Well, no, I do. I want to succeed and that means being able to finish my Associates at Gainesville, get the HOPE Scholarship and transfer into UGA as soon as possible. Plus, like I said, they're all classes that challenge me and make me think. Unfortunately, I think that I'm bruising my brain.
So anyway, these classes end up placing tests or essays due on the same day, which is nerve-wracking. One test is nerve-wracking, much less two in one day!
Tomorrow I have my first Russian History test. I know the basics, but the test is in the format of two essays - two essays! - and that's what makes me nervous. If it was multiple choice, I'd have it with no problem. But with essays you have to go into so much detail. I don't think I'm ready. Of course, I'm going to study hard tonight and hope that gets me through.
Then in my last class of the day, I have to lead discussion about Ch. 18, Eastern Europe, in our textbook. As proven in speech class the other day, I'm not the best public speaker. And it doesn't help that half of the people in this class, World Civ 2, can't stand me for some reason. I can't help it that I know most of the material already since I took Western Civ my freshman year! So I'm nervous to do that. What if no one answers the questions? The professor said we can randomly pick people... but then they'll hate me more! And I have a feeling I'd be put on the spot for the rest of the semester, urgh.
Which brings me to talk about speech class yesterday. I had my self-introductary speech. As much as it pains me to admit this, I made a B. You've got to be joking me. So what if I said "um." Everyone says "um." And the student critique sheets were painful to read. Most of them said my topics were uninteresting, my introduction didn't catch their attention, I didn't follow the outline (which I did, I have my cards to prove it, come on!); so from this I gather that I'm just not a very interesting person, which is probably why I don't have any followers of this blog, LOL. Wow, now I'm laughing to myself. Could get creepy. Anyway... apparently I can sing in front of thousands but I can't do a job well-done on a speech about myself in front of 30 people. Very comic, isn't it? Maybe from now on I'll just sing about everything, maybe that's the only way I'll be heard in life.
Finally, we come to my nervousness about today. I'm trying to get closer to God and there's steps to be taken to do that. So I'm having the local minister over, and I'm just shaking in my socks! I couldn't even eat breakfast :(
But you know... I've been nervous before, and everything worked out. Why? Because I prayed about it. Yesterday, before my speech, I said a quick prayer. And although I got a B, and although my hands still shook, I didn't feel nervous. When you have God on your side, there's just no possible way to feel nervous. I think our human minds keep telling us to worry about things, but the truth is, when I really think about it, I can't get nervous knowing that God is with me.
Who cares what my fellow students graded me, or if they think I'm uninteresting? God thinks I'm interesting.
If I study and do my best on my Russian test, God will bless me. I have no doubt He'll let me get my just grade if I don't even try.
And obviously I wouldn't even be inviting my minister to my house if He hadn't been with me.
And reminding myself of all of this just now has calmed me.
Phil. 4:13
I'm going to live by that from now on.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Welcome Mat
Well, I've started these things before, like InsaneJournal and all that, and I've never followed through. No one really read them. But I think this will be good for me, so here I go.
I want to start off by detailing my travels this morning. It was extremely creepy when I got out the door this morning. It's always dark (and as much as I come alive at night, I'm not too fond of the dark), but this morning it was wet and foggy, which in my book equals creepy. So I rushed to my car and locked all the doors after I got situated. It was unusually thick fog, and it was difficult to drive in. All my instincts were telling me to turn back, but of course I'm a diligent student. So I continued.
As I'm driving, I'm going cautiously and carefully slow, which you'd think most people would have the idea to do. But no, oh no, not near a college town. People are swerving around me and flashing me to put on my brights.
Now, if I recall correctly, in driver's ed, they reiterated several times that you should NEVER put your brights on in the fog. Apparently these drivers didn't get that memo.
Let me say that this does not help the road rage I'm trying to calm. As I try to become a better Christian, I'm trying to tamper down my anger... and this wasn't helping! Urgh!
Well, it turns out I get to my 8 o'clock class and it's cancelled. Should've listened to my instincts, eh? But I like my parking spot too much.
So here I'm sitting, ignoring the massive amount of reading I should be doing for my classes, checking my Facebook and the Daily Tales of Chase on Blogspot. Then the crazy idea pops into my head that just maybe, I should make my own, despite my past failures with such an idea. I guess the rest is history.
Maybe now would be a perfect time to give a plug! I started playing this online game with my best friends Bryan, Colby and Crystal. I need gold as much as possible, so if it's not too much of a bother, please click this link:
http://world2.monstersgame.co.uk/?ac=vid&vid=31121763
You don't have to join or anything. I get gold from you just clicking on it. So thanks if you do so!
Now I should probably go study some, and perhaps practice the introductary speech I have this afternoon; I never thought it'd be so hard to talk about myself.
I want to start off by detailing my travels this morning. It was extremely creepy when I got out the door this morning. It's always dark (and as much as I come alive at night, I'm not too fond of the dark), but this morning it was wet and foggy, which in my book equals creepy. So I rushed to my car and locked all the doors after I got situated. It was unusually thick fog, and it was difficult to drive in. All my instincts were telling me to turn back, but of course I'm a diligent student. So I continued.
As I'm driving, I'm going cautiously and carefully slow, which you'd think most people would have the idea to do. But no, oh no, not near a college town. People are swerving around me and flashing me to put on my brights.
Now, if I recall correctly, in driver's ed, they reiterated several times that you should NEVER put your brights on in the fog. Apparently these drivers didn't get that memo.
Let me say that this does not help the road rage I'm trying to calm. As I try to become a better Christian, I'm trying to tamper down my anger... and this wasn't helping! Urgh!
Well, it turns out I get to my 8 o'clock class and it's cancelled. Should've listened to my instincts, eh? But I like my parking spot too much.
So here I'm sitting, ignoring the massive amount of reading I should be doing for my classes, checking my Facebook and the Daily Tales of Chase on Blogspot. Then the crazy idea pops into my head that just maybe, I should make my own, despite my past failures with such an idea. I guess the rest is history.
Maybe now would be a perfect time to give a plug! I started playing this online game with my best friends Bryan, Colby and Crystal. I need gold as much as possible, so if it's not too much of a bother, please click this link:
http://world2.monstersgame.co.uk/?ac=vid&vid=31121763
You don't have to join or anything. I get gold from you just clicking on it. So thanks if you do so!
Now I should probably go study some, and perhaps practice the introductary speech I have this afternoon; I never thought it'd be so hard to talk about myself.
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