I haven't been posting here because I was introduced to the tumblr blogs... Mine is:
http://emeraldsongbird.tumblr.com/
But here is where I feel is the right place for me to get this out.
I am soooo shocked and horrified at the world Satan has created. It's scary, really, to think about. So much anger, pain, and just pure evil these days.
Let me give an example, using false names. There is a young woman named Emmy that I know, and her teenaged sister Sandra is out of control. Sandra posted pictures all over Facebook of these large beer bottles that had been brought into her room by older, but still underage boys when visiting her. Their mother made Sandra clean them out, and Sandra was saying her "goodbyes" to the beer bottles... okaaay. So, everyone is on Facebook. Emmy found it embarassing. It really does make the family look really bad. (Like she hasn't apologized enough for Sandra in the past.) Sandra's friends were outraged to see all the bottles being thrown away. "Why did that have to happen?" One of the boys commented. Like nothing is wrong with that situation. Like they're not all underage, drinking outrageous amounts of alcohol after sneaking it into our RESPECTABLE household!!! This is Satan's logic, and he's implanted it in youth all across the world.
And I try to make that known to more adults. To me, knowing what it's like to be in adulthood and childhood, I feel like Satan is attacking the youth SO hard, like a constant battering ram. Telling them it's okay to have sex as often and with as many people as possible, drink alcohol, do drugs, do anything get money, etc. It's so accepted and vast... it's so sad to see. It breaks my heart. I hate it!
And so I just keep praying harder and harder for the Kingdom to come. If I didn't know it was, I'd probably break down and cry every single night. It's absolutely a horrid world we live in. I have happiness, and that's because I follow God's way, and so do my parents, and so I've been blessed. But what about all the others that are hurting themselves and those around them because Satan has so cunningly deceived them all? There's only one way for all of this to end, to stop, and that's for Christ to return and take charge.
And I can't WAIT.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Blessings
Never lose faith in God. He gets you through everything... I should know.
The love of my life (starts with a C and ends with an Olby) told me he feels the way I do. And while we both agreed we have a lot of growing up to do still and we will take this slow, I still can't help but be excited about it.
And today, it snowed!!! It's gorgeous... snow in Georgia, I love it. It's just so beautiful.
That's me and Bryan in the snow.
The love of my life (starts with a C and ends with an Olby) told me he feels the way I do. And while we both agreed we have a lot of growing up to do still and we will take this slow, I still can't help but be excited about it.
And today, it snowed!!! It's gorgeous... snow in Georgia, I love it. It's just so beautiful.
That's me and Bryan in the snow.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Unpleasant Encounters... and the Cure!
Today I encountered some pet peeves of mine that I really need to get over. I'm working on it. But really... these really irk me.
Don't have a Facebook if... Don't have a Facebook if you're going to sit there and complain about your friends changing their statuses, changing their profile pic, etc. Or if you're going to make fun of your "friends" because of what they put. That's what Facebook is all about! Letting people know what's going on in your life. If you don't want to see these things, don't pay attention to them, ignore it, don't even have a Facebook, but don't make fun of people for expressing their feelings to people they THOUGHT were their friends. Urgh.
Don't lean over me. I mean from behind, like, over my shoulder. I don't know why this bothers me SO entirely much, but it does. I don't have anything to hide, but I don't like that feeling of someone staring behind me. It's kind of rude, actually. I especially don't like this when people I don't know or don't particularly get along with do it. Have a little respect? Instead of trying to drive a dagger into my back.
Teenage girls are ridiculous. I don't remember being like this when I was younger. And I'm not saying that self-righteously. But these social butterflies, talking about their sex lives (SEX LIVES in high school?!?!?!), their drug use, their alcohol abuse, talking behind each other's backs, talking about when they're going to tan again, how ugly and fat they are when they know they're the opposite... wow, that really hurts my brain. I can't take being in a stuffed car with them for long. Yikes. I hope the Kingdom comes before I have a girl because I don't want any daughter of mine to live like that. Or any young girl, not just mine! What teenagers are doing in this day and age is just... sad.
Well, there you go. My cure for these unpleasant encounters is some prayer, some meditating, and not in the least, some Riesling!
Don't have a Facebook if... Don't have a Facebook if you're going to sit there and complain about your friends changing their statuses, changing their profile pic, etc. Or if you're going to make fun of your "friends" because of what they put. That's what Facebook is all about! Letting people know what's going on in your life. If you don't want to see these things, don't pay attention to them, ignore it, don't even have a Facebook, but don't make fun of people for expressing their feelings to people they THOUGHT were their friends. Urgh.
Don't lean over me. I mean from behind, like, over my shoulder. I don't know why this bothers me SO entirely much, but it does. I don't have anything to hide, but I don't like that feeling of someone staring behind me. It's kind of rude, actually. I especially don't like this when people I don't know or don't particularly get along with do it. Have a little respect? Instead of trying to drive a dagger into my back.
Teenage girls are ridiculous. I don't remember being like this when I was younger. And I'm not saying that self-righteously. But these social butterflies, talking about their sex lives (SEX LIVES in high school?!?!?!), their drug use, their alcohol abuse, talking behind each other's backs, talking about when they're going to tan again, how ugly and fat they are when they know they're the opposite... wow, that really hurts my brain. I can't take being in a stuffed car with them for long. Yikes. I hope the Kingdom comes before I have a girl because I don't want any daughter of mine to live like that. Or any young girl, not just mine! What teenagers are doing in this day and age is just... sad.
Well, there you go. My cure for these unpleasant encounters is some prayer, some meditating, and not in the least, some Riesling!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Ups and Downs
Well, it's the middle of the week, and it certainly has been a trying one.
I know that God gives us trials for a reason, to build our character and give us an opportunity to show us that we really love Him. I had to re-learn that this week. I certainly did not act the proper way a Christian should act, and I've found myself praying for forgiveness a lot. But this is good. I need to realize some things about myself. I need to be slow to anger.
Because life will always have its ups and downs. And I've got to be prepared to handle them.
God is good, and that will always be the case. He's worked some miracles in our family this week, that's all I'll say.
In other news, I made a 10 out of 10 on my informative speech about the Dark-Hunter series in Communications. I picked a topic I'm well-versed on, made a pretty rockin' powerpoint, and here we are: a perfect A on the assignment. Woo-hoo! What a rush.
I had some left-over money from my Dallas trip so I bought a new Kathy Van Zeeland purse, since my Coach one was falling apart. I also bought a bigger backpack, an Ed Hardy backpack to be precise, and it's gorgeous. When Bryan saw me in it, he goes, "Ooooh girl, now you're going to WANT to go to school!" haha, He's so right.
Every new day I am stunned by how much love I have for my animals. Today I went upstairs to my room to get some homework done, and Daisy settled on the end of my bed while Bella said cuddled up next to me. There's just a complete, happy feeling that comes over you -- or at least me -- when it seems like this fluffy little being has unconditional love for you and needs you so much. But I need them just as much. Heck, I mean, I can hardly sleep unless Bella is next to me. They mean so much to me. And God has blest me so much with a great family who also loves animals, and has enough means to take care of many!
And finally.... I'm going to lose weight. I have to. I'm pretty healthy now, but I'd like to be healthier. I'd like to look good. And I'd like for him to admit that he's in love with me... he won't do that unless he is proud to be seen with me. So Bryan is going to help me in this endeavor. I'll never be skinny, but I'd like to reach that "curvaceous buxom beauty" stage.
Hopefully I'll start updating sooner?
I know that God gives us trials for a reason, to build our character and give us an opportunity to show us that we really love Him. I had to re-learn that this week. I certainly did not act the proper way a Christian should act, and I've found myself praying for forgiveness a lot. But this is good. I need to realize some things about myself. I need to be slow to anger.
Because life will always have its ups and downs. And I've got to be prepared to handle them.
God is good, and that will always be the case. He's worked some miracles in our family this week, that's all I'll say.
In other news, I made a 10 out of 10 on my informative speech about the Dark-Hunter series in Communications. I picked a topic I'm well-versed on, made a pretty rockin' powerpoint, and here we are: a perfect A on the assignment. Woo-hoo! What a rush.
I had some left-over money from my Dallas trip so I bought a new Kathy Van Zeeland purse, since my Coach one was falling apart. I also bought a bigger backpack, an Ed Hardy backpack to be precise, and it's gorgeous. When Bryan saw me in it, he goes, "Ooooh girl, now you're going to WANT to go to school!" haha, He's so right.
Every new day I am stunned by how much love I have for my animals. Today I went upstairs to my room to get some homework done, and Daisy settled on the end of my bed while Bella said cuddled up next to me. There's just a complete, happy feeling that comes over you -- or at least me -- when it seems like this fluffy little being has unconditional love for you and needs you so much. But I need them just as much. Heck, I mean, I can hardly sleep unless Bella is next to me. They mean so much to me. And God has blest me so much with a great family who also loves animals, and has enough means to take care of many!
And finally.... I'm going to lose weight. I have to. I'm pretty healthy now, but I'd like to be healthier. I'd like to look good. And I'd like for him to admit that he's in love with me... he won't do that unless he is proud to be seen with me. So Bryan is going to help me in this endeavor. I'll never be skinny, but I'd like to reach that "curvaceous buxom beauty" stage.
Hopefully I'll start updating sooner?
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Infatuation
So, rarely on my 11-hour days do I ever feel that it goes by fast. I do feel stronger and more confident knowing the Holy Spirit dwells inside me, and that is a great feeling.
But today, and I'm almost ashamed to admit this (almost, except that I know EVERYONE has human urges), the reason it went by so fast was because I was daydreaming about one of my professors.
I know... totally off my rocker. But seriously. This certain professor is like, the perfect man, except he's not religious. He's tall, sophisticated, hilarious, charming, a certified genius (he's got a doctorate)... not to mention he's devastatingly handsome, with the most amazing blue eyes I've ever seen on a man. He's everything I could ever want... but he is COMPLETELY off-limits. Besides the fact that the man is my professor, he's married, about twice my age, and not in my church. But a girl can dream, right? It wasn't anything perverted, mind you... okay, so once it might have strayed there but I quickly righted myself. I can't have these thoughts anymore, and I was quoting Scripture like nuts trying to remind myself of that. Sure it's natural to be attracted and such, but beyond that I should just be ashamed of myself. Dude, though... I'm praying for someone just like him, except that someone like him in the church.
I'm reading Ivan Turgenev's Fathers and Sons, as I said before, and it kinda boggles my brain. I can't comprehend who would want to be a nihilist; it would be depressing. Bazarov is supposed to be the hero (apparently) in this book, but he's just making me upset. It's a great book, though! I'm excited to read our other books for this Russian class.
For the record, I have to put to rest, Robert Plant & Alison Krauss deserved the Grammys they won for Raising Sand, especially for album of the year. It's AMAZING. Since I downloaded it I haven't been able to stop.
Now I'm off to do some homework and watch American Idol.
But today, and I'm almost ashamed to admit this (almost, except that I know EVERYONE has human urges), the reason it went by so fast was because I was daydreaming about one of my professors.
I know... totally off my rocker. But seriously. This certain professor is like, the perfect man, except he's not religious. He's tall, sophisticated, hilarious, charming, a certified genius (he's got a doctorate)... not to mention he's devastatingly handsome, with the most amazing blue eyes I've ever seen on a man. He's everything I could ever want... but he is COMPLETELY off-limits. Besides the fact that the man is my professor, he's married, about twice my age, and not in my church. But a girl can dream, right? It wasn't anything perverted, mind you... okay, so once it might have strayed there but I quickly righted myself. I can't have these thoughts anymore, and I was quoting Scripture like nuts trying to remind myself of that. Sure it's natural to be attracted and such, but beyond that I should just be ashamed of myself. Dude, though... I'm praying for someone just like him, except that someone like him in the church.
I'm reading Ivan Turgenev's Fathers and Sons, as I said before, and it kinda boggles my brain. I can't comprehend who would want to be a nihilist; it would be depressing. Bazarov is supposed to be the hero (apparently) in this book, but he's just making me upset. It's a great book, though! I'm excited to read our other books for this Russian class.
For the record, I have to put to rest, Robert Plant & Alison Krauss deserved the Grammys they won for Raising Sand, especially for album of the year. It's AMAZING. Since I downloaded it I haven't been able to stop.
Now I'm off to do some homework and watch American Idol.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Slackin'
I know, I know, I've been remiss in updating. I can't let myself just stop, though, because I want to say that I can keep going with something, you know?
This last Sabbath was awesome! We had afternoon services - boy, do I miss those! - and the sermon was great. Several of my new brethren were congratulating me, and it was a great feeling to be so welcomed into the body of Christ. I feel amazing. Anyway, after church we had a taco salad-themed potluck, and it was YUMMY!!! Wow, we should have those more often. So delicious. At sundown, we had a gift exchange, and my good friend Mr. Wes Cohron traded his gift for a Cat Cafe instead of a cool cop cookie jar for me! So now Bella has an awesome Cat Cafe, but I think I was more excited about it than she was. But the point is, I love being in that atmosphere, with people who I'm literally connected to, it's great. Can't wait til the Kingdom!
Sunday was a nice day. Bryan and I woke up early to go volunteer at Petzone. They got several new little doggies in, two of them dogs that I've always wanted: a Spitz and a Rottie. Awww! They are all so cute. If we hadn't been so tired, maybe we would've stayed a little longer and played with them. When I got home I slept until the afternoon, and realized upon waking that I have a novel to read for my Russia Resurgent class by Tuesday, called Fathers and Sons by Ivan Turgenev. It certainly is interesting, just hard to understand at times. I read that all the way up until the Grammys, which were kind of a letdown, but it had it's shining moments. It perked my interest in Robert Plant & Alison Krauss's Raising Sand album, which I'm about to buy on iTunes. Good for them! I've always liked Alison Krauss.
And today I just finished an essay for mythology about Artemis and Orion. I've never been a fan of Artemis, especially after Sherrilyn Kenyon's Dark-Hunter books, but I argued in her defense and I'm hoping it was good enough. We'll find out!
Now for more Turgenev...
This last Sabbath was awesome! We had afternoon services - boy, do I miss those! - and the sermon was great. Several of my new brethren were congratulating me, and it was a great feeling to be so welcomed into the body of Christ. I feel amazing. Anyway, after church we had a taco salad-themed potluck, and it was YUMMY!!! Wow, we should have those more often. So delicious. At sundown, we had a gift exchange, and my good friend Mr. Wes Cohron traded his gift for a Cat Cafe instead of a cool cop cookie jar for me! So now Bella has an awesome Cat Cafe, but I think I was more excited about it than she was. But the point is, I love being in that atmosphere, with people who I'm literally connected to, it's great. Can't wait til the Kingdom!
Sunday was a nice day. Bryan and I woke up early to go volunteer at Petzone. They got several new little doggies in, two of them dogs that I've always wanted: a Spitz and a Rottie. Awww! They are all so cute. If we hadn't been so tired, maybe we would've stayed a little longer and played with them. When I got home I slept until the afternoon, and realized upon waking that I have a novel to read for my Russia Resurgent class by Tuesday, called Fathers and Sons by Ivan Turgenev. It certainly is interesting, just hard to understand at times. I read that all the way up until the Grammys, which were kind of a letdown, but it had it's shining moments. It perked my interest in Robert Plant & Alison Krauss's Raising Sand album, which I'm about to buy on iTunes. Good for them! I've always liked Alison Krauss.
And today I just finished an essay for mythology about Artemis and Orion. I've never been a fan of Artemis, especially after Sherrilyn Kenyon's Dark-Hunter books, but I argued in her defense and I'm hoping it was good enough. We'll find out!
Now for more Turgenev...
Friday, February 6, 2009
Brand New Day
I had a wonderful day!
Bryan, mom and me went to get Bryan's records on a Georgia form, then we went to eat at IHOP. It was great! I love the chocolate chip pancakes. The three of us had a great time together, and it just made the day special.
I'm constantly trying to keep in mind what is going into it, so I've been slowly re-vamping my iPod. It's not hard for me to get rid of the songs because I like them... it's hard to get rid of them because my friends like them. But I know my salvation doesn't come from them, it comes from the Almighty, so I know I'll get there. I'll just take it a day at a time.
I'm excited it's the Sabbath! Happy Sabbath to all of you. :)
Bryan, mom and me went to get Bryan's records on a Georgia form, then we went to eat at IHOP. It was great! I love the chocolate chip pancakes. The three of us had a great time together, and it just made the day special.
I'm constantly trying to keep in mind what is going into it, so I've been slowly re-vamping my iPod. It's not hard for me to get rid of the songs because I like them... it's hard to get rid of them because my friends like them. But I know my salvation doesn't come from them, it comes from the Almighty, so I know I'll get there. I'll just take it a day at a time.
I'm excited it's the Sabbath! Happy Sabbath to all of you. :)
Good News
I was baptized tonight, at 8:30 pm. I am very proud to be a true member of the body of Christ and the church of God. I fill like the hole inside me has been filled, and I am just bursting with joy. I know the changes will come gradually, but right now I am so happy. I know I will never regret this decision, and I am so excited about being in God's family. Everything in this world pales in comparison to what He's planned for us, promised us. I am excited to have His light shine through me.
Thanks and praise be to God, always.
Thanks and praise be to God, always.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Tested
Yesterday was quite a day...
I thought we'd have a snow day and I was a little resentful to get up and have to go out as cold as it was. But of course I did. My classes weren't anything special; more evolution crap in anthropology.
I got out and headed home. My cell phone ran out of battery, and the gas light came on a little before I was headed into a really bad part of town. As I'm rolling into the town, I lose all my gas, and manage to roll right into a gas station. This was only accomplished with God, by the way. I was praying my rear end off. I had 5 dollars on me that I used to put some gas in the car, quickly, and got back on the road.
I come home to the TV being taken over AGAIN. All I ask for after a long day of class is a bowl of cereal and the living room TV, that has my recorded shows on it. But no. Oh, no.
Well, it certainly was a day of tests. And that's fine. I know Satan's after me as I start getting closer to God. And I know it'll be worse after I'm converted. So I'm glad for these little tests, because it's only strengthening my need to be by God's side.
Now I am going to go find my warranty for my computer, have some Coco Puffs, and pick my mom up from the salon later.
It's a beautiful day, so thanks be to God :)
I thought we'd have a snow day and I was a little resentful to get up and have to go out as cold as it was. But of course I did. My classes weren't anything special; more evolution crap in anthropology.
I got out and headed home. My cell phone ran out of battery, and the gas light came on a little before I was headed into a really bad part of town. As I'm rolling into the town, I lose all my gas, and manage to roll right into a gas station. This was only accomplished with God, by the way. I was praying my rear end off. I had 5 dollars on me that I used to put some gas in the car, quickly, and got back on the road.
I come home to the TV being taken over AGAIN. All I ask for after a long day of class is a bowl of cereal and the living room TV, that has my recorded shows on it. But no. Oh, no.
Well, it certainly was a day of tests. And that's fine. I know Satan's after me as I start getting closer to God. And I know it'll be worse after I'm converted. So I'm glad for these little tests, because it's only strengthening my need to be by God's side.
Now I am going to go find my warranty for my computer, have some Coco Puffs, and pick my mom up from the salon later.
It's a beautiful day, so thanks be to God :)
Monday, February 2, 2009
In a Nutshell
What did I miss? See, this is why I fall behind...
I'll just go with Sunday. In the morning, I headed up to Petzone to let the doggies go potty. I'm getting attached, which isn't always smart, but whatever. Kate's doing a great job with these dogs. I love the place, and I'm happy to help out. I might be joining the adoption team for Sundays, so that's cool.
Later on Sunday, me and my family went to the Cohrons' home, a family from church we've grown close to, for the Super Bowl Party.. We had a ball. Nothing better than watching football and spending time with friends... it's something that's severely American, I love that. Anyway... it was a blast, and I hope to do it again soon. We definitely made some memories! And even though the Cardinals lost (sadly!), I enjoyed myself very much. I love being with brethren!
Today I actually rolled out of bed and took Daisy, my big dog, to the post office with me to mail my friend my old calculator. The people at the post office are so nice, and it's pleasant to see that in these times. It was a beautiful day... and then the clouds started rolling in....
....Which I'm hoping means SNOW DAY tomorrow. Or ice day, whatever you'd like to call it. I love to learn but I'll take any opportunity to get out ;) Maybe Thursday, if not tomorrow.
So, that's about it. The last two days in a nutshell. Hopefully I'll be able to keep up better in future.
I'll just go with Sunday. In the morning, I headed up to Petzone to let the doggies go potty. I'm getting attached, which isn't always smart, but whatever. Kate's doing a great job with these dogs. I love the place, and I'm happy to help out. I might be joining the adoption team for Sundays, so that's cool.
Later on Sunday, me and my family went to the Cohrons' home, a family from church we've grown close to, for the Super Bowl Party.. We had a ball. Nothing better than watching football and spending time with friends... it's something that's severely American, I love that. Anyway... it was a blast, and I hope to do it again soon. We definitely made some memories! And even though the Cardinals lost (sadly!), I enjoyed myself very much. I love being with brethren!
Today I actually rolled out of bed and took Daisy, my big dog, to the post office with me to mail my friend my old calculator. The people at the post office are so nice, and it's pleasant to see that in these times. It was a beautiful day... and then the clouds started rolling in....
....Which I'm hoping means SNOW DAY tomorrow. Or ice day, whatever you'd like to call it. I love to learn but I'll take any opportunity to get out ;) Maybe Thursday, if not tomorrow.
So, that's about it. The last two days in a nutshell. Hopefully I'll be able to keep up better in future.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
I'm Cold
As I was getting out of the shower this morning and wishing I could instantly have clothes appear on myself, I got to thinking.
Yes, I do love the winter time. I mean, I did. When I went through that stupid emo phase I liked the cloudy, depressing skies during the winter. I never really liked the cold itself, I just liked wearing all my really cute winter clothes. About 3/4 of my wardrobe is long-sleeved, and I'm more comfortable in long-sleeved tops, so that's why I always loved winter.
But this morning I realized, I'm very much in love with the sun. At least, this new Katie is. Sunny days seem to lift everyone's spirits, so to say. I like being warm. I would NEVER want to live up north where I would freeze every day. I was born and raised a Southern girl and I don't think that will change.
On other notes, I was really saddened today. My own family thinks I'm a hypocrite, because as I learn new things and try to change, I try to help them, as well. I wish I could say the whole story so it's more understandable, but I'm trying to let it breeze by. I know where my heart is, and more importantly, so does God the Father. At least I know once I'm baptized, HE will forgive me, and all my past deeds, and I will start a new life in Him. If no one else wants to accept that, then that's their problem. I need to focus on myself and not on what other people think or say about me, when I'm not even in the wrong. It's really gonna take me some time to realize that when people try to use my past against me, I shouldn't feel guilty. But I'll get there. God says He will forgive me, but He never says anything about anyone else, and that's fine. My focus is on the Kingdom and if I have to lose friends, or, as unpleasant as it may be, family, because I chose a higher calling, then so be it. And if certain family members want to go around talking about me, I won't care anymore. I can't let myself care. And if certain best friends want to follow after certain family members... so be it. That stings, but I'm not scared to be alone anymore. Why? Because I know now more than ever that I'm NEVER alone.
So there we go. I hope you had a Happy Sabbath; mine was trying but it was definitely blessed.
Stay warm!
Yes, I do love the winter time. I mean, I did. When I went through that stupid emo phase I liked the cloudy, depressing skies during the winter. I never really liked the cold itself, I just liked wearing all my really cute winter clothes. About 3/4 of my wardrobe is long-sleeved, and I'm more comfortable in long-sleeved tops, so that's why I always loved winter.
But this morning I realized, I'm very much in love with the sun. At least, this new Katie is. Sunny days seem to lift everyone's spirits, so to say. I like being warm. I would NEVER want to live up north where I would freeze every day. I was born and raised a Southern girl and I don't think that will change.
On other notes, I was really saddened today. My own family thinks I'm a hypocrite, because as I learn new things and try to change, I try to help them, as well. I wish I could say the whole story so it's more understandable, but I'm trying to let it breeze by. I know where my heart is, and more importantly, so does God the Father. At least I know once I'm baptized, HE will forgive me, and all my past deeds, and I will start a new life in Him. If no one else wants to accept that, then that's their problem. I need to focus on myself and not on what other people think or say about me, when I'm not even in the wrong. It's really gonna take me some time to realize that when people try to use my past against me, I shouldn't feel guilty. But I'll get there. God says He will forgive me, but He never says anything about anyone else, and that's fine. My focus is on the Kingdom and if I have to lose friends, or, as unpleasant as it may be, family, because I chose a higher calling, then so be it. And if certain family members want to go around talking about me, I won't care anymore. I can't let myself care. And if certain best friends want to follow after certain family members... so be it. That stings, but I'm not scared to be alone anymore. Why? Because I know now more than ever that I'm NEVER alone.
So there we go. I hope you had a Happy Sabbath; mine was trying but it was definitely blessed.
Stay warm!
Friday, January 30, 2009
Volunteering
Well, today, even though I had (as usual) huge reservations about committing, I went and volunteered at this place called Petzone. It's a great place, the people are nice, and the dogs are so sweet. I loved helping out, it was just SO much work. But it's a good way to show animal-lovers that it IS possible to have too many. At least dogs, that is. Especially untrained ones. Yikes! But the owner, Kate, is going a great job there, and making a difference in her little corner. I want to be a part of that difference. So Bryan and I are going in Sunday morning to open. I don't know how much I can keep up during the week, considering it's somewhat of a drive (especially when gas goes back up!) but I am thinking maybe Fridays, if they need me, and Sunday mornings. I already want to adopt two of the dogs, and I fell in love with the two "house" cats, Mr. Fluffy and Mr. Whiskers - they're Sphinxes so they have absolutely no fluff or whiskers! - so this could be dangerous! Haha! My animals were alllll over me when I walked in. I think Bella is mad at me :(
Needless to say, after this week, I'm definitely ready for the Sabbath. I'm ALWAYS ready for the Sabbath! And soon I'll actually be a true part of the church. So exciting.
I guess that's it for now. I'm wiped. But Praise God!
Have a great Sabbath!
Needless to say, after this week, I'm definitely ready for the Sabbath. I'm ALWAYS ready for the Sabbath! And soon I'll actually be a true part of the church. So exciting.
I guess that's it for now. I'm wiped. But Praise God!
Have a great Sabbath!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Eating Habits, New Habits
I’ve come to find that there is one type of eating that gives you energy, and one type that makes you want to curl up and sleep. I had to learn this the hard way. And I'm surprised I never realized it before. But, this is about change, right? So, I'm glad I came upon the realization today.
Now, my dad gave me a bag of whole-wheat pretzels, about a 1/4 full, as I was rushing out the door to classes today. I had planned on having two or three in the fifteen minute break between my classes, and a little water.
What happened instead was, I had a whole class off, and after talking to the hot Brad for a little while, I went out with Julie to Taco Bell. I didn't have the money and I had pretzels and water! But, in true Katie fashion, I went ahead and got a cheesy gordita crunch, as well as grilled chicken taquitos. Wow, was it good. But when I went back to my last three classes, all I wanted to do was fall asleep. I felt like a cat who ate too much and just wants to go pass out.
And that's when I realized I've got to stop this. I need energy, not contentment. I need to be alert at school. I had been starving myself all day, because I hate eating in front of people, but from now I'm just going to eat the pretzels Dad gave me and drink my water in between all my classes to keep me alert. That's certainly a happy medium!
I did great on my Russian test and the day went very well. God has a lot to do with this, I think. I feel vibrant, and I don't even have the Holy Spirit yet, so I can't imagine what it's going to be like when I actually have God's presence within me!!! I'm so excited. Can't stop smiling when I think about our Father's great mercy.
I have a lot more to talk about, but I'll save it for tomorrow since it's coming about then.
Thanks for reading!
Now, my dad gave me a bag of whole-wheat pretzels, about a 1/4 full, as I was rushing out the door to classes today. I had planned on having two or three in the fifteen minute break between my classes, and a little water.
What happened instead was, I had a whole class off, and after talking to the hot Brad for a little while, I went out with Julie to Taco Bell. I didn't have the money and I had pretzels and water! But, in true Katie fashion, I went ahead and got a cheesy gordita crunch, as well as grilled chicken taquitos. Wow, was it good. But when I went back to my last three classes, all I wanted to do was fall asleep. I felt like a cat who ate too much and just wants to go pass out.
And that's when I realized I've got to stop this. I need energy, not contentment. I need to be alert at school. I had been starving myself all day, because I hate eating in front of people, but from now I'm just going to eat the pretzels Dad gave me and drink my water in between all my classes to keep me alert. That's certainly a happy medium!
I did great on my Russian test and the day went very well. God has a lot to do with this, I think. I feel vibrant, and I don't even have the Holy Spirit yet, so I can't imagine what it's going to be like when I actually have God's presence within me!!! I'm so excited. Can't stop smiling when I think about our Father's great mercy.
I have a lot more to talk about, but I'll save it for tomorrow since it's coming about then.
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Nervous Much?
It seems as if I have a lot to be nervous about lately.
Six classes in one day (we're talking 1 hour and 15 minute classes that actually challenge me) is really a lot to take on. I don't know what I was thinking. Well, no, I do. I want to succeed and that means being able to finish my Associates at Gainesville, get the HOPE Scholarship and transfer into UGA as soon as possible. Plus, like I said, they're all classes that challenge me and make me think. Unfortunately, I think that I'm bruising my brain.
So anyway, these classes end up placing tests or essays due on the same day, which is nerve-wracking. One test is nerve-wracking, much less two in one day!
Tomorrow I have my first Russian History test. I know the basics, but the test is in the format of two essays - two essays! - and that's what makes me nervous. If it was multiple choice, I'd have it with no problem. But with essays you have to go into so much detail. I don't think I'm ready. Of course, I'm going to study hard tonight and hope that gets me through.
Then in my last class of the day, I have to lead discussion about Ch. 18, Eastern Europe, in our textbook. As proven in speech class the other day, I'm not the best public speaker. And it doesn't help that half of the people in this class, World Civ 2, can't stand me for some reason. I can't help it that I know most of the material already since I took Western Civ my freshman year! So I'm nervous to do that. What if no one answers the questions? The professor said we can randomly pick people... but then they'll hate me more! And I have a feeling I'd be put on the spot for the rest of the semester, urgh.
Which brings me to talk about speech class yesterday. I had my self-introductary speech. As much as it pains me to admit this, I made a B. You've got to be joking me. So what if I said "um." Everyone says "um." And the student critique sheets were painful to read. Most of them said my topics were uninteresting, my introduction didn't catch their attention, I didn't follow the outline (which I did, I have my cards to prove it, come on!); so from this I gather that I'm just not a very interesting person, which is probably why I don't have any followers of this blog, LOL. Wow, now I'm laughing to myself. Could get creepy. Anyway... apparently I can sing in front of thousands but I can't do a job well-done on a speech about myself in front of 30 people. Very comic, isn't it? Maybe from now on I'll just sing about everything, maybe that's the only way I'll be heard in life.
Finally, we come to my nervousness about today. I'm trying to get closer to God and there's steps to be taken to do that. So I'm having the local minister over, and I'm just shaking in my socks! I couldn't even eat breakfast :(
But you know... I've been nervous before, and everything worked out. Why? Because I prayed about it. Yesterday, before my speech, I said a quick prayer. And although I got a B, and although my hands still shook, I didn't feel nervous. When you have God on your side, there's just no possible way to feel nervous. I think our human minds keep telling us to worry about things, but the truth is, when I really think about it, I can't get nervous knowing that God is with me.
Who cares what my fellow students graded me, or if they think I'm uninteresting? God thinks I'm interesting.
If I study and do my best on my Russian test, God will bless me. I have no doubt He'll let me get my just grade if I don't even try.
And obviously I wouldn't even be inviting my minister to my house if He hadn't been with me.
And reminding myself of all of this just now has calmed me.
Phil. 4:13
I'm going to live by that from now on.
Six classes in one day (we're talking 1 hour and 15 minute classes that actually challenge me) is really a lot to take on. I don't know what I was thinking. Well, no, I do. I want to succeed and that means being able to finish my Associates at Gainesville, get the HOPE Scholarship and transfer into UGA as soon as possible. Plus, like I said, they're all classes that challenge me and make me think. Unfortunately, I think that I'm bruising my brain.
So anyway, these classes end up placing tests or essays due on the same day, which is nerve-wracking. One test is nerve-wracking, much less two in one day!
Tomorrow I have my first Russian History test. I know the basics, but the test is in the format of two essays - two essays! - and that's what makes me nervous. If it was multiple choice, I'd have it with no problem. But with essays you have to go into so much detail. I don't think I'm ready. Of course, I'm going to study hard tonight and hope that gets me through.
Then in my last class of the day, I have to lead discussion about Ch. 18, Eastern Europe, in our textbook. As proven in speech class the other day, I'm not the best public speaker. And it doesn't help that half of the people in this class, World Civ 2, can't stand me for some reason. I can't help it that I know most of the material already since I took Western Civ my freshman year! So I'm nervous to do that. What if no one answers the questions? The professor said we can randomly pick people... but then they'll hate me more! And I have a feeling I'd be put on the spot for the rest of the semester, urgh.
Which brings me to talk about speech class yesterday. I had my self-introductary speech. As much as it pains me to admit this, I made a B. You've got to be joking me. So what if I said "um." Everyone says "um." And the student critique sheets were painful to read. Most of them said my topics were uninteresting, my introduction didn't catch their attention, I didn't follow the outline (which I did, I have my cards to prove it, come on!); so from this I gather that I'm just not a very interesting person, which is probably why I don't have any followers of this blog, LOL. Wow, now I'm laughing to myself. Could get creepy. Anyway... apparently I can sing in front of thousands but I can't do a job well-done on a speech about myself in front of 30 people. Very comic, isn't it? Maybe from now on I'll just sing about everything, maybe that's the only way I'll be heard in life.
Finally, we come to my nervousness about today. I'm trying to get closer to God and there's steps to be taken to do that. So I'm having the local minister over, and I'm just shaking in my socks! I couldn't even eat breakfast :(
But you know... I've been nervous before, and everything worked out. Why? Because I prayed about it. Yesterday, before my speech, I said a quick prayer. And although I got a B, and although my hands still shook, I didn't feel nervous. When you have God on your side, there's just no possible way to feel nervous. I think our human minds keep telling us to worry about things, but the truth is, when I really think about it, I can't get nervous knowing that God is with me.
Who cares what my fellow students graded me, or if they think I'm uninteresting? God thinks I'm interesting.
If I study and do my best on my Russian test, God will bless me. I have no doubt He'll let me get my just grade if I don't even try.
And obviously I wouldn't even be inviting my minister to my house if He hadn't been with me.
And reminding myself of all of this just now has calmed me.
Phil. 4:13
I'm going to live by that from now on.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Welcome Mat
Well, I've started these things before, like InsaneJournal and all that, and I've never followed through. No one really read them. But I think this will be good for me, so here I go.
I want to start off by detailing my travels this morning. It was extremely creepy when I got out the door this morning. It's always dark (and as much as I come alive at night, I'm not too fond of the dark), but this morning it was wet and foggy, which in my book equals creepy. So I rushed to my car and locked all the doors after I got situated. It was unusually thick fog, and it was difficult to drive in. All my instincts were telling me to turn back, but of course I'm a diligent student. So I continued.
As I'm driving, I'm going cautiously and carefully slow, which you'd think most people would have the idea to do. But no, oh no, not near a college town. People are swerving around me and flashing me to put on my brights.
Now, if I recall correctly, in driver's ed, they reiterated several times that you should NEVER put your brights on in the fog. Apparently these drivers didn't get that memo.
Let me say that this does not help the road rage I'm trying to calm. As I try to become a better Christian, I'm trying to tamper down my anger... and this wasn't helping! Urgh!
Well, it turns out I get to my 8 o'clock class and it's cancelled. Should've listened to my instincts, eh? But I like my parking spot too much.
So here I'm sitting, ignoring the massive amount of reading I should be doing for my classes, checking my Facebook and the Daily Tales of Chase on Blogspot. Then the crazy idea pops into my head that just maybe, I should make my own, despite my past failures with such an idea. I guess the rest is history.
Maybe now would be a perfect time to give a plug! I started playing this online game with my best friends Bryan, Colby and Crystal. I need gold as much as possible, so if it's not too much of a bother, please click this link:
http://world2.monstersgame.co.uk/?ac=vid&vid=31121763
You don't have to join or anything. I get gold from you just clicking on it. So thanks if you do so!
Now I should probably go study some, and perhaps practice the introductary speech I have this afternoon; I never thought it'd be so hard to talk about myself.
I want to start off by detailing my travels this morning. It was extremely creepy when I got out the door this morning. It's always dark (and as much as I come alive at night, I'm not too fond of the dark), but this morning it was wet and foggy, which in my book equals creepy. So I rushed to my car and locked all the doors after I got situated. It was unusually thick fog, and it was difficult to drive in. All my instincts were telling me to turn back, but of course I'm a diligent student. So I continued.
As I'm driving, I'm going cautiously and carefully slow, which you'd think most people would have the idea to do. But no, oh no, not near a college town. People are swerving around me and flashing me to put on my brights.
Now, if I recall correctly, in driver's ed, they reiterated several times that you should NEVER put your brights on in the fog. Apparently these drivers didn't get that memo.
Let me say that this does not help the road rage I'm trying to calm. As I try to become a better Christian, I'm trying to tamper down my anger... and this wasn't helping! Urgh!
Well, it turns out I get to my 8 o'clock class and it's cancelled. Should've listened to my instincts, eh? But I like my parking spot too much.
So here I'm sitting, ignoring the massive amount of reading I should be doing for my classes, checking my Facebook and the Daily Tales of Chase on Blogspot. Then the crazy idea pops into my head that just maybe, I should make my own, despite my past failures with such an idea. I guess the rest is history.
Maybe now would be a perfect time to give a plug! I started playing this online game with my best friends Bryan, Colby and Crystal. I need gold as much as possible, so if it's not too much of a bother, please click this link:
http://world2.monstersgame.co.uk/?ac=vid&vid=31121763
You don't have to join or anything. I get gold from you just clicking on it. So thanks if you do so!
Now I should probably go study some, and perhaps practice the introductary speech I have this afternoon; I never thought it'd be so hard to talk about myself.
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